The greatest prison people live in is the fear of what other people think

The greatest prison people live in is the fear of what other people think.

Why is it that I feel and I mean FEEL, such remorse and even physical pain when I’ve made a mistake, a poor choice in life ?

Do you ever feel like you deserve what has happened to you, like karma is working in reverse ?

Maybe karma knew you were going to make mistakes in life and just stared early ?

I’m farrrr from perfect and I’ve hurt people along the way. When I’m reminded, the hurt and remorse is so strong and hard to bear, I feel fear, so much fear for my sanity and my life.

I do truly frear of what my loved ones think, and it is a prison sentence. So I stay in my house, I make sure people know where I am, who I’m with, what I’m doing, how I feel (I don’t even know how I feel sometimes). I want them to know I’m not making more mistakes. I apologize and try to make amends for the hurt I’ve caused, sorry, sorry, sorry.

This is my life, so scared to commit mistakes that will hurt people I LOVE.

Today I’m reminded that I too have hurt people, I feel like a horrible person, unworthy of love and forgiveness. I deserve the prison sentence of my own mind.

Sorry, sorry, sorry… I feel it’s my mantra, sometimes.

Do you wonder if the child abusers feel this way ?

Why is it that we feel sorry for family devastation, sorry for who we are, even sorry for trying to find love and joy ?

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